Tally and I were recently on a road trip when I heard this song on a radio station. She had gone to sleep, sleeping peacefully in the backseat. There was no one else in the car, I begin to weep. The words of the song, which are captured in the video below (special thanks to the video ministry of Romans12ajay), begin to minister to me that with all of our hang-ups, insecurities, fixations, and stuff, God still loves us and desires to be in a real relationship with us.
It is amazing that when I was play dating in school, little boys would go around proclaiming their love for me but did not know the first thing about me, what color I liked, or what type flowers I was allergic to. When they would be asked a question by my friends, they would flounder their way to trying to read the lips of my other associates who would not even try to drop them a clue. Then one day, my dad accompanied me to the house of one of the boys who had surprised me with chocolates and balloons for Valentine’s Day. My dad asked him the same questions, What is my daughter’s favorite TV show? or What is her favorite sport? Dude, he could not even answer those questions. My dad politely had me to return the gifts that this boy probably asked his mama to buy, with my dad telling him, “When you get to know my daughter in a couple more years, maybe them you can share your candy with her!”
In this same vein, many of us have probably been proclaiming Jesus, Jehovah as our GOD, the beginning and the end, but have we really developed a real relationship with him where we can go to him snot mouthed and all pouring out our issues and asking him for his help? For years, I had a relationship with Jesus via my parents and when they died, so did my relationship with him.It was conditional, and after my parents left this earth, I went to the arms of the first identifier who could clearly articulate my “identity” since my daddy had so well. He always told me that Jesus loved me, but when daddy died, so did my desire to read the bible in order to learn what Jesus said I was or am and what He had done and was going to do to give me victory in my life. The greatest comfort I have is knowing that whether we accept it or not Jesus knows absolutely everything about us that there is to know. He knew your hair color before you decided to dye it platinum, he knows how much you really can take before losing your cool? He knows how many hairs you have on your head- with or without the weave—-what an awesome God. And He loves you and me anyway!
Have you found yourself at these crossroads? Rather than DEAL with the issue that we are facing in life, we mask and develop addictions to cover up-lesbian relationships with our best friends all because we are looking for love after being hurt by men, shopping to cover the pain of not having human relationships, or sleeping with married men, because of our inability to commit. It is time to take off the mask and ask God for the strength to deal with our issues. John 10:10 says that the thief (Satan) came with the sole purpose to kill, steal, and destroy us. God has and is come to give us abundant life that is overflowing with peace, joy, stability, and hope for a bright future!
Our latest situation may be a culmination of mess, but keep believing and being honest to God about it as well as to yourself and God will translate that mess into a masterpiece. You are beautiful. God loves you and He has great plans for you as Jeremiah 29:11 says, plans to prosper you and not harm you—plans to give you hope and an expected end!