Hi Daddy! Today marks 13 years since you left this Earth. Since your departure, I have grown into a woman tickled now at the passion I now have for organizing the masses and telling everyone about Jesus. You have truely made an indellible mark on my life in such a way that I talk to Darcy and Tally about you often and yet although you are absent from the body, your greatness lives on. When you first left my mourning was complicated. I could not understand why someone with 3 kidney transplants and 55 operations could not bounce back as you always did. I struggled with what life was going to look like after you left but I tell you Daddy…..God has become the greatest GPS ever!
It’s never easy losing someone that you love and I am a proponent of therapy to assist in identifying and walking through the grief progression. In addition journaling has been a major help. With all those special aides, surrendering to God has been a journey and I would not take anything for the development that accompanies it.
I remember asking God, when is mourning finished? This question can be answered in so many different ways but for me it is finished when I can speak about you with no pain. My sadness has turned to joy—the “fillers” that I used to grab onto to numb me to your passing have faded away like a puffed cloud of smoke. When I faced the reality of life without you here on Earth, the tightness in my chest alleviated and I found myself wanting to know who God was for myself rather than the days of being a PK (Preachers Kid- where God was God regardless). smile.
So I hope that you and Mommy are doing well and that you still shouting and preaching the gospel! I want you to know that all is well here! My determined purpose in life is to know Him (God).
Bonakasi Daddy! Bonakasi! I love you!
Love this and U. We loved him so much, but GOD loves him more..Bless U!
Danita, this is so beautiful! You had me crying like a baby. God has blessed me with 2 great fathers, so I can only imagine the pain I will feel when they leave this earth. Your father was an amazing person and man of God and I know it must have been incredibly difficult (to put it lightly) losing him and your Mom. What I do know is you are making them extremely proud by the work you are doing and the person you have become. Their beautiful light shines so brightly through you and there is comfort in knowing one day you will see them again! Love you my sister and be encouraged because your parents are ALWAYS with you!!!